I feel fantastic. I officially decided that I no longer want to be a surgeon two days ago and I’ve never felt better. I feel like I can breathe again, like so much of my anxiety has just dissipated and I can fully enjoy my uni course because I do enjoy the work when you take away the immense amount of pressure I was putting on myself to do perfectly.
I feel really good. Like I can aspire to be a happy, healthy, twenty year old and I can enjoy being around myself and start to enjoy being around others as well.
For the first time since I was fifteen, I feel hopeful that happiness and wellness are in my grasp.